i keep seeing eleven eleven everyday, by chance, and i keep wishing that it will lead me to an awakening, like it’s supposed to. it hasn’t yet. or maybe it has and i just haven’t realized. i hope not.
the other night, i asked my dreams to guide me. my entire time in dreamworld was spent searching everywhere for some sign of meaning, some little tiny hint of guidance. but there wasn’t any to be found.
my cards told me to just keep going, things will be fine and work themselves out. i am skeptical.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. maybe it’s the cold, or the lack of sun. maybe it’s just me.
anyway, i’m alone again and this is what i wanted. i’m just not sure why. i still can’t help but feel bad, but oh well..what else was i supposed to do?